It's really hard to sleep

Fuck with the title. Haha sorry.
Been sooo long to write something in here again. So this week i'll be a senior! Yea.......yes i'm getting older (?)
After a very long break after the ied, the school, my school, will be started and (thank God) i've passed the junior year and now i'm a senior.
Thougts about the future is coming to my mind in a scary (?) way. I mean, i still am not sure about my future. About my future life. I still haven't made up my mind which major i'd like to take after (inshaaAllah) graduating the senior high.
When i was in my first year in the high school, i was choosing 'graphic designer' to filling the ambition blank in a psychology test (i think almost all the senior high in Indonesia have thisskind of test). But now, i'm not sure. Really. Why? Because i can't draw. In a software or even in a paper.
Anyway, there is this one thing. One thing that i really want to be THAT one. But i think my insecurity doesn't let me be one. At least for now. Xoxo.