My last sip

Having this moolatte greentea yesterday evening. I didn't expect to be that tasty. Basically, it just tasted as a common grentea blended. But, i think it's worth it to buy. Except.........the price is quite expensive. At least, for me hahaaha. It's Rp 40.000/each.
Thank God, my brother paid it.
And so this one become the last blended drinks i had drunk in 2014.

It's really hard to sleep

Fuck with the title. Haha sorry.
Been sooo long to write something in here again. So this week i'll be a senior! Yea.......yes i'm getting older (?)
After a very long break after the ied, the school, my school, will be started and (thank God) i've passed the junior year and now i'm a senior.
Thougts about the future is coming to my mind in a scary (?) way. I mean, i still am not sure about my future. About my future life. I still haven't made up my mind which major i'd like to take after (inshaaAllah) graduating the senior high.
When i was in my first year in the high school, i was choosing 'graphic designer' to filling the ambition blank in a psychology test (i think almost all the senior high in Indonesia have thisskind of test). But now, i'm not sure. Really. Why? Because i can't draw. In a software or even in a paper.
Anyway, there is this one thing. One thing that i really want to be THAT one. But i think my insecurity doesn't let me be one. At least for now. Xoxo.

Dream is Better Than Reality

Society makes me sick.
I'm almost 17. I'm not mature enough. I have made many mistakes in my life.
People say, it's okay to make mistakes. So you won't make the same one again in the future.
But, if it makes us feeling insecure? Afraid? Sick??!!
Gosh.

Days

I bet this time of night you're still up.
I bet you're tired from a long hard week.
I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city.
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me.

- Almost Do (by Taylor Swift)


Hell-oooooooooo
It's been a quite some time taking me to write here again. Yeaaay.
School, friends, family, and society have been going on as usual.
Though last week, i visited Kuala Lumpur for taking some health check-up-kind-of-thing.
It supposed to be some days for the checking up things, but hell yes it was only taking a day.
So, me and mom have 3 days unplanned vacation.
It was great. Extremely great. 

And then, Monday started calling my name.
It means that i should go back to school.
No, i like the people there.
I just don't really want to go to 'school'.
But that's not a thing that i can decide on my own.
Weather i want it or i don't want it, i must go to school.
It's my priority.
At least, for now. 

Talking about the future, i still am not really sure what university should i take or what faculty.
Studying abroad has been my dream for a quite some time.
Just kidding.
For a long time.
Idk. I just want to live away from my hometown.
Or maybe, because of some movies which i had watched that have many great, cool, nice spots that making me want to live there.
My family even my friends know this. 
Talking about the future, scares me. 

Xo. Have a goodnight.

I got tricked

I thought this starbucks' cotton candy will almost taste like marshmallow slurpy that sold in seven eleven. I got tricked because of the color. Hmph.

1:32

Sleeping is harder to do today. Though i'm on my bed but......to keep my eyes close for a long time just hard for me. Idk why. Maybe because i had slept in the afternoon today? Perhaps.
But, i just feel disadvantage. Because there is doubt that i can wake up early today. Fuck. School will be started about five hours later. I'm a person who is really hard to wake up in the morning. And that case is adding up with the problem called hard-to-sleep. Gosh.
I miss my holiday:( where are youuu? I need you so much. Come back to me soon please.

(I do not own the photo. Source: weheartit.com)

Long time no post

Almost a month have passed this year, and here i am sitting on the back seat of the car with my mom and dad. It's five o'clock here. So this is what i took a minute before. No, i'm not in forest.

Finally!

Yeaaayyyyyyy finally mini Iker was born! Today Sara gave birth to her little boy, Martin! In spanish i think his complete name will be Martin Carbonero Casillas, isn't t?
Well, idk, i'm just overly happy right now. This is what i wish for. And my wish have came true:') yuuppp i really want iker and sara have a baby. But my other wish haven't came true yet. The wedding. Ok. Sorry. But, that's all what i want to say. Bye.
God bless!!!!

It's just me .

Page 3.
So it's 00:35 here in my bedroom. I'm with my pillow here layin on my bed. I've done some things in 2014. It's only about 48 hours though hahaha. What did i do? hmm watching dvds, eating foods, checking my phone and going to my friend's house. I did take shower too, fyi. I didnt pray because i was and i'm in period for these two days.
Guess what? I'm getting more and more scared, you know. Because, the school will start in just a few days later. New semester will be in front of me. And i will, or i must face it. Shit. Yap shit likes to appear in front of me. I just don't know how to kill it. Bloody hell.
Sorry for my cursing.
And that's all what i want to write here. Wish you luck!
And wish me luckier than you. Xoxo.
Mwah.