Dream is Better Than Reality

Society makes me sick.
I'm almost 17. I'm not mature enough. I have made many mistakes in my life.
People say, it's okay to make mistakes. So you won't make the same one again in the future.
But, if it makes us feeling insecure? Afraid? Sick??!!
Gosh.

Days

I bet this time of night you're still up.
I bet you're tired from a long hard week.
I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city.
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me.

- Almost Do (by Taylor Swift)


Hell-oooooooooo
It's been a quite some time taking me to write here again. Yeaaay.
School, friends, family, and society have been going on as usual.
Though last week, i visited Kuala Lumpur for taking some health check-up-kind-of-thing.
It supposed to be some days for the checking up things, but hell yes it was only taking a day.
So, me and mom have 3 days unplanned vacation.
It was great. Extremely great. 

And then, Monday started calling my name.
It means that i should go back to school.
No, i like the people there.
I just don't really want to go to 'school'.
But that's not a thing that i can decide on my own.
Weather i want it or i don't want it, i must go to school.
It's my priority.
At least, for now. 

Talking about the future, i still am not really sure what university should i take or what faculty.
Studying abroad has been my dream for a quite some time.
Just kidding.
For a long time.
Idk. I just want to live away from my hometown.
Or maybe, because of some movies which i had watched that have many great, cool, nice spots that making me want to live there.
My family even my friends know this. 
Talking about the future, scares me. 

Xo. Have a goodnight.